Will It Ever End

Will It Ever End

Why me? I am angry!

Why must I be the one?

I hate being weak

How do I cope…

I have no idea.

He said it had to be done

He gave me the options

Like buying a car

So simplified

So impersonal.

More scars

Some seen, most unseen

Mixed feelings

Need it over with

Don’t want to face it!

Tired of the pieces

Wanting the whole

The need to grow

To become one

Burns deep inside.

The day looms

At times shaking

The unknown fears

But other times

The fears settle

Like a heavy mantle.

They say Don’t worry

How can I not?

My world is changing

Its not something

That is easy

To come to terms with.

Cold steel

Soft warm flesh

Sleeping calm

Bright lighting

Cold so cold

I have been there

Have to do it again.

Will it ever end?

I hope it’s over

After this one

Doubt creeps

Into my mind.

Kit Masters © Written  November 23, 2004; 
originally posted November 27, 2004