Healing

Healing

Unkind words

Hidden scars

Laid bare

Latent emotions

Healing wounds

Memories remade

Esteem built

Soothing presence

Warm thoughts

Safe inside.

Kit Masters © August 8, 2005

*I kinda misplaced this poem and recently found it.

Who Am I?

Who Am I?

This question was difficult to answer. It really threw me outside of my comfort zone. I felt blank. I was upset but I didn’t realize the emotions I felt were a direct result of being unable to answer this simple question. I thought this question was simple but it’s not simple instead it’s a very complex and it really is a hard question to answer. I was despondent. I felt like I was lost in a very big ocean on a small raft with no paddles and the sky was clouded with no stars to aid in getting my bearings. I was positively overwhelmed by my emotions. I dislike when that happens because I feel unsettled and have to deal with intense emotions. Some of the things I felt with the despondency were irritation and confusion. I felt weak even though I know I am a very strong person.

I was lucky to have someone help me figure out all the things that were causing me to have a melt down. It took several hours to find balance within. It took great care and love to see who I am, how I view myself and how others see me. I have found that I am a passionate person that feels the extremes of emotions and at times I don’t know how to deal with them. I am an intelligent person, who can rationalize and think. I am a person that can be tough, strong & hard, or soft, sweet & innocent or anything in between. Sometimes the things in between are more difficult to deal with. I am a very creative person. I enjoy making/creating things that have color and are pleasing to the eyes. I am a very special person. I am unique. I exist in this time and place for specific reasons even if I don’t know what they are. I am working on getting to know more about myself.

When I Sleep Deep

When I Sleep Deep

Anger boiling

Below the surface

Tears burning

To slide down

Disappointment clouding

My mind and thoughts

Words leaving

Speech failing me

Deep inside

A need to run & hide

Divided needs

Want to leave, have to stay

Always justifying

Small things and changes

Endless questioning

Driving me mad

Exploding rage

Flashes of hurt

Tears flowing

As I feel the pain

Letting go

Is what I would rather do

Bleeding inside

Unseen wounds, tormented again

Curls up

Into a tight ball and sleeps

Nothing touches

Me when I sleep

Nothing torments

Me when I sleep deep.

Kit Masters © August 4, 2005

Complete Package

Complete Package

Complete control

She wanted to feel

Being controlled

Is what she craved

He gave her what

She craved & wanted

He never wanted

To control anyone

She never wanted

To give up control

Yet the two together

Made them whole.

He surrendered

To her power

Letting her energy

Flow through him.

He told himself

To get a drink

And proceeded to

Fall to his knees.

He chose to yield

She chose to take him

He longed to be tasted

She craved to drink

Fantasies long lay hidden

They both craved

Yet did not know

How to get

What would

Complete them

Melt them

Assuage their hunger

Sate the hidden beasts.

Domination

Submission

Obedience

Pleasure

Unconsciously they sated

Each others cravings.

First bite taken

Out of craving so strong

Blood lust unquenched

Such a passionate kiss

So sensual yet erotic

Filling the mind with

Sensations unending

He found it arousing

She so careful with him

A precious treasure

She refused to harm

Or hunt in anyway.

Temptation to take him

Flowed through her

She quenched the desire

Taking her time

With the snarly male

She talked to

Her fanged one

Appeared that day

She had awoken his

Most secret desires.

She unveiled

The tiger in him

The panther in her

Rejoiced in having a

Sweet tiger to curl

Up with & to nuzzle

Tiger just wanted

To lay at her feet

She wanted him

To pounce & play with her

He finally obliged her.

Her bear broke free

She caressed the angry one

Drawing him into her world

He is one of her protectors

He adores her

She adores him.

She unleashed the maelstrom

When she was advised to

Put him away

She showed him love

He melted under

Her sweet ways

& innocent assault

He was forever changed

By her adorable touch.

Her magician sought after by many

But captured by only one

Finally having the freedom

Of softness, trusting & love

Both learning about the other

They melt into each other

When stresses overwhelm

They sink fangs into each other

And drain the negative away.

They brighten each others worlds

They give freely to each other

Taking the gifts freely offered

Placing great trust in each other.

Spiraling

Relaxing

Melting

Soothing

Healing

Learning

Shifting personae

Swift mood changes

Balancing each other

Instinctively knowing

What’s needed.

Giving

Receiving

Yielding

Controlling

Understanding

Serving

Light at tunnels end

Calming energy during stress filled time

Loving & compassionate embrace

Healing, soothing touch

Entrancingly, melodious voice

Deep captivating eyes.

All in a complete package.

Kit Masters © July 31, 2005

In The Haven Of My Heart

In The Haven Of My Heart

In the darkness of my mind

The thoughts which consume me

Closing my eyes, losing sight

Floating on the clouds inside

One holds me here

Grounded to reality

He keeps me focused

When I need it most

Within the walls of my heart

Is a door leading within

It is the only opening

And he holds the key

In my time of need

He’s the only one

Who begs me to take heed

And I hear his words

He doesn't realize that I do not control

He’s the one holding me tight

He’s the one who keeps me whole

And I cling to that whole heartedly

To keep me held here

Grounded to our reality

Holding one so dear

In the haven of my heart.

Kit Masters © July 23, 2005