Who Am I?

Who Am I?

This question was difficult to answer. It really threw me outside of my comfort zone. I felt blank. I was upset but I didn’t realize the emotions I felt were a direct result of being unable to answer this simple question. I thought this question was simple but it’s not simple instead it’s a very complex and it really is a hard question to answer. I was despondent. I felt like I was lost in a very big ocean on a small raft with no paddles and the sky was clouded with no stars to aid in getting my bearings. I was positively overwhelmed by my emotions. I dislike when that happens because I feel unsettled and have to deal with intense emotions. Some of the things I felt with the despondency were irritation and confusion. I felt weak even though I know I am a very strong person.

I was lucky to have someone help me figure out all the things that were causing me to have a melt down. It took several hours to find balance within. It took great care and love to see who I am, how I view myself and how others see me. I have found that I am a passionate person that feels the extremes of emotions and at times I don’t know how to deal with them. I am an intelligent person, who can rationalize and think. I am a person that can be tough, strong & hard, or soft, sweet & innocent or anything in between. Sometimes the things in between are more difficult to deal with. I am a very creative person. I enjoy making/creating things that have color and are pleasing to the eyes. I am a very special person. I am unique. I exist in this time and place for specific reasons even if I don’t know what they are. I am working on getting to know more about myself.