My Best Friend Is Back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Best Friend Is Back!!!


I was compelled to write this and post it to my blog.


About 6 weeks ago I was really dealing with a lot of different
emotions and I tend to be unable to cope well when it comes
to them. There were a few things that caused me to feel hurt
at the time but looking back on it perhaps it was a good thing.
My best friend was away for a while and I couldn’t reach her
so I was very sad about her being gone.


I made a few new friends that I treasure with all my heart.
I owe them for being my friend when I was so confuzzled. I’m
glad that I met them when I did because I know that they are
true friends…*LOL* no one should have to deal with me when
I’m confuzzled.


I learned that I could deal with emotions, not well but that
I didn’t have to run and hide from them. I learned that I didn’t
have to hide from my emotions. I learned that friends come and
go and you have to let them go after the lesson is finished.
Sometimes they stay and other times your time together is over.
No one is at fault.


My friends were a bit busy with life and I had to rely on myself
and so I withdrew from things for a while. I learned that sometimes
pulling away can help focus my attention on what needs to be done.
My friends didn’t understand when they come looking for me why I
was a bit withdrawn and perhaps less talkative than before. How do
you explain 6 weeks of happenings into a 30 minute conversation?
You don’t, you can’t.


I will not apologize for what I have done or not done. I think
I’m a stronger person for the lessons I have learned. I wouldn’t
give up the time I have had making new friends and getting to know
a couple of special friends. *grins* I couldn’t withdraw forever,
it isn’t in my nature.


*smiles* My Best Friend is back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I couldn’t believe
it when she messaged saying she was ok. I was relieved, happy, and
I was crying too…I *never* allowed myself to cry until recently. I
learned that crying is a release and not an indicator of weakness.
I learned that I can be strong and still be soft. I learned that there
is strength in leaning when you need to, it means that the ones that
lean on you won’t crush you because you can lean on someone for a bit.


I learned that asking for help doesn’t make you weak. I learned that
all of these lessons someone else will have to learn. So perhaps that
is the reason I was compelled to write this…