My Favorite Song Is...

My Favorite Song Is...

I don't think anyone really understands the significance of what this song means to me. It's as if this song was written for me at a time when it was needed the most in my mind. When I am sad I sing this song and it makes me smile even if I have tears streaming down my face. It’s a joy to sing this song out loud without worrying that someone is going to be critical or complain about the singing. Some people are easily irritated by many things and I find it sad that they are that way, to me it seems like they miss out on some really special things.


This song talks about the different parts a woman has to play throughout her life and even during her everyday life. To me this song is about the facets that everyone has. Lately I have noticed that people become attached to facets sometimes and forget that there is more to someone besides that sliver or facet. No one is a single facet. The most fascinating person I know is my best friend she is a brilliant diamond (I can see that she radiates love and is a beautiful person inside and out!!!). Diamonds have lots of facets and so it would explain why I find her fascinating. Our conversations are at times so chaotic someone else reading it wouldn’t really understand it at all, but to us it's the way it has always been, with each other we can just be ourselves. *smiles* We tend to learn from each other and about each other. How to cope with different situations, how to be soft and caring, how to be strong and firm, all of these things are important.

Bitch 

by Meredith Brooks

I hate the world today. You're so good to me, 

I know but I can't change. Tried to tell you, 

But you look at me like maybe, I'm an angel 

underneath, Innocent and sweet.

Yesterday I cried. You must have been relieved 

To see the softer side, I can understand how 

you'd be so confused, I don't envy you. I'm a 

little bit of everything all rolled into one.

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover, I'm a child, 

I'm a mother, I'm a sinner, I'm a saint, and 

I do not feel ashamed. I'm your hell, I'm your 

dream, I'm nothing in between. You know you 

wouldn't want it any other way.

So take me as I am, This may mean you'll 

have to be a stronger man. Rest assured that when 

I start to make you nervous, And I'm going to 

extremes, Tomorrow I will change, And today won't 

mean a thing.

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover, I'm a child, 

I'm a mother, I'm a sinner, I'm a saint, 

and I do not feel ashamed. I'm your hell, 

I'm your dream, I'm nothing in between. 

You know you wouldn't want it any other way.

Just when you think you've got me 

figured out, The season's already changin'.

I think it's cool you do what you do And 

don't try to save me.

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover, I'm a child, 

I'm a mother, I'm a sinner, I'm a saint, 

and I do not feel ashamed. I'm your hell, 

I'm your dream, I'm nothing in between. 

You know you wouldn't want it any other way.

I'm a bitch, I'm a tease, I'm a Goddess 

on my knees. When you hurt, When you suffer, I'm 

your angel undercover. I've been numb, I'm revived, 

Can't say I'm not alive, You know I wouldn't want 

it any other way.

Recently, a few friends remarked that there were changes in recent behavior. They noticed the changes and didn't know how to deal with the new facet. They want the old facet back. We know things are constantly changing no one is the same person that they were 6 months before. Things happen and for whatever reason sometimes people come and go. If and when they return I imagine they think that they can pick up where they left off, sometimes that is and can be the case but in some cases the changes are more than they are comfortable with. Perhaps that is why they want the old facets back...because they were comfortable, in this instance I find that they are only thinking of themselves with no regard to the growing that has happened while they were away. Perhaps they should think about what they need from that facet and see why that was important to them. Asking the following questions might help too...What did that facet do? What caused the change? Isn't it a change for the better? Why am I upset over this change?


I see a trend and it starts with the word *I*. The things that should be asked are Will this new facet need a friend? Will the changes bring great joy and learning? Will the new facet be as fascinating as the old one? There are a lot of things that can be learned about someone and how they deal with change. Sometimes Adapting is the only way to cope. I have learned that to try and be someone else doesn’t work, and to try and go back will not work either. A simple change has at times a far reaching affect it's like dropping a rock in a pond you can see the ripples as the water is forced to move.


Personally I like who I am in this moment, I finally actually like myself...*grins* I just realized that. *smiles* for years I had an intense dislike of and for myself. I wonder when those feelings went away. I have no idea. Do I miss that part of me that allowed the self hate...simply No, I don't. Are there times that I feel like reverting back to what was comfortable? Yes, there are but I try not to because I have made progress with myself and I want to continue to grow.