Needing Balance...

Needing Balance...

I wrote this on the 8th after I had finished posting some things to make me smile and talking to someone very special to me.

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Yesterday I was in a precarious state of mind after I read the poetry from Jaeda DeWalt’s website. It hit on a few thoughts, feelings and emotions that I have felt but never expressed in any way. Even now I think I’m only dealing with a small sliver of my emotions right now. My mind is protecting me from my past and letting me deal with it a little at a time.


I posted that thought to my blog with the intention of writing something completely different. Something upbeat, but that didn’t happen. Instead I ended up typing…”I need to get my balance right now. Opening a window to the soul means you have to deal with whatever comes out. No matter what it is...” I don’t know where that thought came from; but when I thought about it I did feel out of balance, like I was teetering on a precipice. I was fortunate that someone was around that could help me find my center and re-balance.


I sometimes forget that I can’t do everything by myself; and that on occasion I need help. I have a hard time asking for help. I’m not sure why I have such a hard time doing that. I am working on modifying that habit, perhaps even changing it.


This blog of mine started as something that I could post silly things on. I never really thought that I would pour out some of my pain and happiness. It has become away for me to express myself and work toward healing myself.