Living A Fantasy

Living A Fantasy

Living a fantasy

Reality but a dream

Fantasy being reality

In my broken mind

Perhaps made up

Like gossamer dreams

Reality crashed through

My mind spiraled

My fantasy world

Smashed

Gone

Fantasy more real

Than reality

Plummeted into darkness

Floundering

No haven

Hopelessness abounds

One conversation

One innocent remark

Devastating pain

My world is gone

Broken beyond repair

I release you from

The guilt you feel

The torment you feel

The pain you feel

Your promises I treasure

Your love a precious gift

One year I have loved you

Each memory stored

For one year I know

That I was loved for myself

Walls taken down

They will be rebuilt

Stronger

For you I will let you go

Forgetting is so easily done

You no longer need me

My love more damaging than

Anything can be

A love forbidden

Now torments him

Love blossomed

It was beyond my control

Now that love

Must die

I can not love

I must let go

To spare him

I will become ice inside

When he leaves

The barriers will never

Come down again

To have loved so deeply

Means that I will hurt even more

Pieces united will go away

A new and stronger one

Will be ruthless again

Letting no one cross

The threshold of love

One person’s words

Destroyed me

Destroyed my

Hopes and dreams

Perhaps it’s meant to be this way

I shouldn’t have love

I don’t deserve it.

This has spiraled

It has touched each one

Bleeding inside

Weeping for the loss

Innocence unprotected

From the fatal blow

Foolish I was

Maybe I’m the fantasy

Hurtful words whispered

By an unkind

Unseen enemy

No safe haven

The abyss calls

The pull becomes stronger

The point of breaking

Looms closer

Tears course as I write

His freedom is his

I have no hold over him

Corrupter of one

Honorable & true

Predator

Taking what’s desired

Unworthy

Of My Love

Heartbroken

Heart wrenching discovery

Tormented

Beyond mercy

Precious soul

Lost in the pain

Imprisoned

By my love

Inconsiderate

Blinded by love

Whispered

Words slicing

At my mind

Strength wanes

Hopelessness wanes

The hollowness

Fills me again

Where once love existed

Emptiness now rules

A love so bright & pure

Tarnished by actions &

Words spoken thoughtlessly

Silent contemplation

Leaves quiet resolve

Soothing energy

Flowing healing

The chasm closing

2 hearts healing

Emptiness filled

With love.

Kit Masters © March 26, 2006