Devastating News

Devastating News

My precious one had some devastating news and I am helpless to do anything for him. I can’t comfort him; I can’t give him a hug or tell him it’s going to be okay.

It hurts to feel him in such pain. His anger is fearsome when he is hurting. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make everything right in his world; but all I can do is pray and think positive thoughts. I guess it’s enough for him that I am here for him that he can lean on me; that he feels safe enough to be himself. 


He is so worried about his father. I need to help him somehow; he says I do, but I don’t think its enough. Trying to write this I have lost my ability to find the words that fit the situation. That isn’t something that happens often.

I feel like I’m a child again scared and helpless. Hoping all goes well isn’t enough. There are no guarantees in life, but I wish I could give him this for his peace of mind. I wish I could promise him that his father will come out of surgery with flying colors.

If I could trade one life for another I would do it myself. I feel like crying. I’m sad and angry. If I could I would trade his father for mine. His father is a good person mine wasn’t. His father deserves a long and happy life.